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Where Jesus Is

So. Went to see Grandmother. Found her slumped from exhaustion in her wheelchair (where she had been since lunch) freezing in front of an air conditioner, in just a gown, no housecoat. They know that she is supposed to be able to lay down if she wants to, and that she is ALWAYS cold. Sigh. So, Mama gets the aides in to get her in bed, and I fix the air conditioner.

Anyway. We were asking her if she wanted this or that to ensure her comfort and she said to me, “I want to go home.” I just looked across the bed at Mama, and Mama said, “I can’t”. Grandmother was facing me, and her back was to Mama. I said softly, “I’m not sure she meant your house.” And Mama said, also softly, “Ask her what she meant, my home or eternal home.” So.

I asked her. “Where do you want to go?” and. she. said. “Where Jesus is.” And I just leaned over her and hugged her, and started crying. I told her that it wasn’t time yet. That Jesus was making a place for her, just like He said in His Word, and that He must not be finished with it yet, so she’d have to wait a bit longer.

I cannot explain how this hurts. See, I know that God is good, all the time, and all the time, God is good. I know that He is merciful. And I know that she is suffering, and so very ready to meet her Savior. And I struggle in my mind with this question of why He allows this to be???

(An aside to fundamentalists here: I am the most fundamental of fundies. So don’t even think to ask me “how dare you question God?” Because He knows my inmost thoughts, He already knows the struggles in my heart and mind. I am not stupid enough to think I can keep my doubts from Him, and I am wise enough to know that either He’ll let me know eventually, or else, it just won’t matter to me anymore. Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. That doesn’t make me unquestioning, it only makes me trusting.)

I am ever ready to give account of the hope that is within me. And I know that I know that I know, that before we realize her soul has departed, she will be hearing the Savior say, “Welcome Home Muriel. Well done, thou good and faithful servant.” And she will be healed, and she will be whole, and she will find out that Baptists really can dance, and it’s not even a sin, LOL! And she will hurt no more. See, the Bible tells me that there is no pain in heaven, that He will dry every tear. That she, and I, and the redeemed of the ages will live forever, praising Him.

John 14: 1-4
1 Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. 2 In my Father’s house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.
4 And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know.

1Thess 4:13-17
13 But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope. 14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him. 15 For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we which are alive and remain unto the coming of the Lord shall not prevent them which are asleep. 16 For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first: 17 Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord.

2 Corinthians 5:6-10
6 Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord: 7 (For we walk by faith, not by sight:) 8 We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord. 9 Wherefore we labour, that, whether present or absent, we may be accepted of him. 10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ; that every one may receive the things done in his body, according to that he hath done, whether it be good or bad.

Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

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